The Will of the Father.
Lately I've been wondering what is next for my husband and I now that the kids are all grown and starting their own families and lives. All of them are at least 45 minutes to 2 hours away, so that even babysitting or just getting together has to be a planned event. I long for them and our grandbabies to be closer, but alas it is not to be. At least they are close enough to visit frequently.
The will of God. We have been talking about moving into a smaller home and downsizing all our stuff. What a chore that will be as we have lived in this house for 23 years and started off with 3 kids. Lots and lots of stuff. Then when my mother moved to an assisted living, she sent me a lot of her stuff from her condo. China, boxes and boxes of hers, her mother's and her grandmother's china..... No one wants china anymore Anyway, we have lots of stuff from both our parents' homes that our children didn't want or have room for, so now we have to rid ourselves of this stuff and of our own stuff too.
When my father died this past April, it was a sudden event that no one was ready for, including my dad. So when he was in the hospital with a brain bleed, frail, and basically hopeless, I had to start getting his apartment emptied. My older brother called 1-800-Junkguys. They came and took all my dad's stuff away, except a few things that my brother and I wanted. It was sad, I have dad's rocking chair, lamp, and most of his writings, my brother took most of his paintings and a mantle clock. But most of his stuff, his clothes, furniture, trinkets, shaver, food, prescriptions, computer, kitchen table, dishes, pens, and shoes were taken to the dump. Sigh.
Now we are the oldest generation, the top tier, next to go group. We have so much acquired stuff that needs to be dealt with now or later but has to be dealt with. When my husband and I prayed the other night, I added a prayer for God to show us his will for our next move. We said amen, then my husband looked at me as said, "It's what WE want to do." I corrected him and said, "God's will is what we want, it will be the best for us." He said, "Alright." God's will IS the best for us, I just cannot hear what it is, and I'm so frustrated about it.
God, please help us know what to do next. Please give us guidance whether to move, where to move, when to move. Help us hear your will....my brain is always so busy that it seems to drown out your voice...your whispers. I only want to hear from you for our next phase of life.
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